A Worried Momma
A few days ago I sat on the couch in the quiet early morning opened my devotional, and began to read.
“Refuse to worry, because this form of worldliness will weigh you down and block awareness of My Presence.”
– Jesus Calling
Most days (I am ashamed to say) I do my quiet time, Willow wakes up and I forget everything I had previously read. However, this quote from my devotional book continued to pop into my head over and over again. Over nap time I decided to sit down and reread it. It was as if God was lovingly smacking me across the face.
I don’t know about you, but being a mom has made me a serious worrywart. I am constantly worried about Willow getting hurt, or choking on food, or that her hip will dislocate, or that she will break a bone, need stitches, stop breathing in her sleep, and my mind goes on and on and on. It’s exhausting. As Willow has gotten older I have been able to control some of my worryings, but the bible doesn’t say to “only worry a little”.
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.”
-Matthew 6:34 (MSG)
So how on earth do I do this? I’ve tried keeping a “healthy perspective” on my worrying. After all, I know that worrying isn’t going to keep Willow safe. It will, however, give me an anxiety attack. So I did a bit more digging to find some answers.
“For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. For the mind that is set on the flesh is hostile to God, for it does not submit to God’s law; indeed, it cannot. Those who are in the flesh cannot please God.
You, however, are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if in fact, the Spirit of God dwells in you. Anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him. But if Christ is in you, although the body is dead because of sin, the Spirit is life because of righteousness. If the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who dwells in you.”
– Romans 8:6-11 (ESV)
And boom. All of my sleepless, worrying nights, or panicked moments of watching Willow eat, I was NOT allowing my mind to dwell on truth and God’s word. It seems so easy, but for some reason, I constantly forget this truth. My mind is so often stuck in “mom mode” that I run myself into the ground without remembering the truth. God will be there to help me deal with hard things. He doesn’t say life will be easy, BUT He does say He will equip me as a mom to get through those trials. I mean He brought me through 2 hip surgeries and dealing with Willow in a spica cast for 3 months. If we can survive that, I am sure we can handle whatever else may come.
So now I will do my best to really focus my mind on truth each morning. To set my thoughts on the Spirit of God and not on my worries or fears for the future. I know God is with me. He has never let me down. With His help, I can get through the toughest of times.